I can't believe the day I've had. First, my teacher puts my name down for something I didn't even want to do. We have a yr11 sports day, I day which I hate with a passion. It's fun for the people who actually do anything and do it well. For the people like me who suck at any sport, it's torture. For some strange reason, people up here either hate me or just want to see me suffer. My own teacher, without me knowing, put me down for something. He is so in my bad books!!!! Seriously, at least let me turn down the idea. And I don't know what I did to my class to make them turn on me during things like this. ooo my name is unusual and I'm not a size 8, but guess what, no one in my class is as skinny as they think they are. And I don't like unusual, I like unique. And at least I have a future unlike some people in my class.
Then I got the results from my geography mock. In all honesty, I didn't revise, and thus didn't get a great mark. I am very proud of my friend and I think she's going to do so well, but that doesn't mean that I can't feel crummy about it. I talked to my teacher, and she knows why I failed. I'm sure she has faith in me, but at the moment, I have no faith in me. I can't even type out that I'm failing, but I know I am. I don't want to fail. I don't know what happened. Well thats a lie, I do know, and I know I will get better, I just wish I did well now.
I felt like crying twice today. Both situations would have been embarrasing, so I decided it may not have been a great idea. So I'm doing it now.
Stupid things came out of my mouth today. Can I just say, the joke I told I don't even find funny, it was the memory of my friends laughing that made me laugh.
Hopefully 2010 will be better for me. Or I'll make it better for me.
Later
C xoxo